The “Big Black Dog”

Well I started off the year so excited and happy about blogging. I have plenty of ideas for posts. But alas, I have not posted in nearly 3 weeks. The truth is, I’ve had a harder time re-adjusting to life in CA than I’d anticipated. Going from living in a house full of family to living alone with only Harmony, my cat, for company is hard. Not that Harmony is bad company. She is truly my baby and I love her with all my heart. <3 I also love spoiling caring for her and making sure all her needs are met.

Besides Harmony, the other company I live with is not always so pleasant. It’s a…metaphorical Black Dog*.

I’ve had a “Black Dog” in my life ever since I was in high school. It grew bigger in college, and even bigger after college. Sometimes the dog shrinks and I’m able to fit it on a leash. Other times it blows up so large that I’m living with a Big Black Balloon Dog. The past two weeks have been balloon dog days, triggered by the difficulties I’ve had in readjusting to my CA life after the holidays.

This is not a woe-is-me post. This post is about giving that dog less power by exposing it to the light. I can feel the dog stomping over my keyboard. Sorry dog, but you have been found out. You’re not going to win this battle, at this moment. 🙂

My therapist suggested journaling, which I do each night. I have a nightly ritual now, where I update a variety of things (all pen-and-paper):

I look forward to my nightly journaling ritual. It’s been so therapeutic. I use a different color pen each night and as a result, the pages are lively and fun to look at. I realize how much I have to be thankful for in life, and that’s a great way to end each day.


* I have nothing against black dogs. I know many nice black dogs (including my uncle’s dog). Black dogs are NOT bad. Dogs are NOT bad. Black things are NOT bad. I’m only using this metaphor since that was what the creator of the video I linked used.

2 Comments

  1. This is lovely, Michelle. I’m a big fan of writing in journals both on paper and electronically. Day One is my favorite computer app for journaling, and Moleskine goods are my go-to products for physical writing. Keep it up. Looking forward to catching up with you sooner than later. 🙂

    1. Thanks Philip! 🙂 I’m going to check out Day One, it looks neat! And I love Moleskine. One of these days I will add one of their journals to my collection. I’ve been interested in getting one of their “Passion” Journals but haven’t decided which one to get yet. 🙂 Yep, we should definitely catch up soon.

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